Reflection of Day 6
Questions for Day 6
- Where do you need to add margin to your life?
- When have you recently overreacted?
- What was your real motivation behind it?
- Consider what good things you might say "no" to so that you can be free to prioritize the best things.
- What decisions have you made today?
Yesterday (07/04/2020), the day was okay. I felt that I did a good job in reacting to tough situations. I went to a meeting with my motorcycle club in the morning and took my two daughters and left the other kids with Lorenzo. When I got home, he was not wanting to do anything except for relax and sleep. He had a rough night before because of his burn accident and his arm was still causing him pain. The kids were bugging us non-stop about going out to the cabin and I didn't want to keep the kids all cooped up in the house on a hot day. He seemed frustrated with the kids and I felt at times that he was directing that frustration towards me. But I didn't feed into it or entertain it. I basically just let him say what he wanted to say and act towards me that wanted he felt like he needed to act. Because of that, I felt myself getting irritated and frustrated. I really wanted him to go with us, but he was feeling a different kind of way. So I decided to take ALL of the kids out to the cabin for a couple of hours to give him a break and space. Inside, I was really upset because I wanted him to go with us, but I put my feelings aside and went alone with the kids. At the cabin, I was getting really angered and irritated at the kids and then mad at the fact that he wasn't at the cabin with me. I started feeling really angry and negative thoughts about the whole situation. But I made it. After a couple of hours, the kids and I left the cabin and went home. We ate dinner and then he took us all out to watch the fireworks. It was a very busy, yet hectic day. I had to let go of unnecessary things and be content with how the day lined out.
I feel that I need to continue to find things for myself to do whether that is with me or just with my kids and I. I also am working on not wanting to be around him 24/7. Don't get me wrong, I love being around him and could sit next to him all day but he tends to push me away and feel as if I am "always up his ass". I feel that would be one area that I will continue to work on. I am not sure what things that I might say "no" to. Maybe saying "no" to my kids always needing my help. I need to allow them to figure things out on themselves. Maybe another area that I might say "no" to would be if he asked me to go somewhere with him, I may just say "no" out of respect to let him go out on his own without thinking that I need to be up his ass. Just an idea. But I am not sure.
- Where do you need to add margin to your life?
- When have you recently overreacted?
- What was your real motivation behind it?
- Consider what good things you might say "no" to so that you can be free to prioritize the best things.
- What decisions have you made today?
Yesterday (07/04/2020), the day was okay. I felt that I did a good job in reacting to tough situations. I went to a meeting with my motorcycle club in the morning and took my two daughters and left the other kids with Lorenzo. When I got home, he was not wanting to do anything except for relax and sleep. He had a rough night before because of his burn accident and his arm was still causing him pain. The kids were bugging us non-stop about going out to the cabin and I didn't want to keep the kids all cooped up in the house on a hot day. He seemed frustrated with the kids and I felt at times that he was directing that frustration towards me. But I didn't feed into it or entertain it. I basically just let him say what he wanted to say and act towards me that wanted he felt like he needed to act. Because of that, I felt myself getting irritated and frustrated. I really wanted him to go with us, but he was feeling a different kind of way. So I decided to take ALL of the kids out to the cabin for a couple of hours to give him a break and space. Inside, I was really upset because I wanted him to go with us, but I put my feelings aside and went alone with the kids. At the cabin, I was getting really angered and irritated at the kids and then mad at the fact that he wasn't at the cabin with me. I started feeling really angry and negative thoughts about the whole situation. But I made it. After a couple of hours, the kids and I left the cabin and went home. We ate dinner and then he took us all out to watch the fireworks. It was a very busy, yet hectic day. I had to let go of unnecessary things and be content with how the day lined out.
I feel that I need to continue to find things for myself to do whether that is with me or just with my kids and I. I also am working on not wanting to be around him 24/7. Don't get me wrong, I love being around him and could sit next to him all day but he tends to push me away and feel as if I am "always up his ass". I feel that would be one area that I will continue to work on. I am not sure what things that I might say "no" to. Maybe saying "no" to my kids always needing my help. I need to allow them to figure things out on themselves. Maybe another area that I might say "no" to would be if he asked me to go somewhere with him, I may just say "no" out of respect to let him go out on his own without thinking that I need to be up his ass. Just an idea. But I am not sure.
Day 7: Love believes the best |
Today's Goals
Appreciation Room..... Well I feel that this is a place that I need to go more often. I feel like I need to appreciate him more than I already do. I need to stop putting his failures on the front line. Love focuses on the positive. It is time to starting thinking different and let Love lead. As the reading says, the only time that you should go into the depreciation room is when you want to take a quick look in is so you can know how to pray for your spouse and when you actually go in is when you need to write "Covered in Love" in huge letters across the walls. I need to continue to choose to mediate on the positive.